Don't Let Your Husband Cut Your Hair!!

I started this blog last night and had it titled: The Dreaded Day has Arrived, Head Shaving Day! But then I decided to change the title after my husband shaved my head.  This is a long post, but hope you enjoy it.

A friend sent me a post about losing my hair during chemo and how to keep laughing.  This is the link from a cancer survivor named Denise.  This is exactly how I feel.

My hair has been coming out for the last 2 weeks, I know I was just being hopeful that it might just thin and I'd have some left.  It's just too much hair to lose.  I would wear a cap to bed at night and it was just covered in hair in the morning.  I'd take a shower and try not to rub my hair, but there would still be hair all over my hands, hair in the drain, it was just awful.  Then there would be hair all over me during the day.

Stephanie, my friend at work and our HR manager, would come in my office with a roll of tape and press it over me to get the hair off my back and chair.  I know that's just too gross right?  What a trooper!

I took this picture Thursday morning, I decided to wear a hat to work instead of trying to let it keep shedding.  The hat bothered me, it was just annoying. :)  Aren't the flowers in the background pretty? I'll tell you more about those in a future post, because I want to talk about working for family owned companies and the flowers have a lot to do with that.

So I have decided it's time to shave it off.  It's a big step, one that I'm not very happy about.  Anyone that tells you that this is ok, hasn't been there and doesn't understand.  I know there are plenty of other things to worry about, such as the fact that I have CANCER, but it's still hard to lose your hair.  I know I will embrace my bald side at some point, but right now I just want to cry.

Since it's time to shave my head, it's time to get a wig, don't want to scare everyone too much.  The American Cancer Society gives cancer patients a wig for free (I have donated to them in the past, but I will definitely donate to them in the future!)

Mark and I picked Kasey up from school and headed to Springfield.  I found a wig, it wasn't the exact color I wanted, but will do.   Plus I got a several hats and scarves that I can wear.

I've ordered this wig online, but it won't be here for a couple of weeks. It's a little bit longer than the one above.

Here's where the title of my blog post comes in:

DON'T LET YOUR HUSBAND CUT YOUR HAIR!!!

So I was going to have my neighbor, Kelly, shave my head for me, but we just weren't able to get it to work last night.  This morning, I thought I'll just get Mark to do it.  Well, let me tell you, that was a mistake!!!  He shaved my head, but it's all different lengths and I have a tuft of hair right on the top of my head that sticks up!  He did a horrible job!  :)  Just kidding, there's nothing that would make it better, but I think I could probably get it shaved a little better.

I'm not really ready to show pictures, but I did take some pictures and they are pretty funny.  I'll be ready to post them a little later I think.  Plus I want to take a bunch of bald pictures with my dad, Mark, and any of my balding friends at work.  Just have to work up the courage to do that.  For now, I'll sport around the wig.

I'm saving my hair, so I can remember what it felt like and looked like.  I don't know if that is weird or not, but I think it might be interesting to feel how it is when it comes back in, compared to how it was.

The last line in Denise's blog posting is "The hair will come back.  It's a renewable resource!"  So, goodbye hair and I'll be waiting in anticipation for your return, but please hold the gray though!  I can live without that in the future.